Remembering Maa

 Maa

It's been 5 years now emotionally and 1 year physically that you left us. 5 years because you were never the same after Papa went away. I have seen what a devastated, depressed person looks like. I never saw the same sparkle in your eyes when you laughed, never the same zeal in doing anything. I never in the remotest of my thought imagined that I will ever see you like that.  

Since 2014, I never prayed or bowed before Goddess Durga as she took away my father first and then you in 2019. I kept complaining to her for not seeing our pain and loss until few months before I realized that she saw your suffering and your pain which was much beyond ours.

You taught us everything but you missed to teach us how to live without you. I have lots of things buried in my heart because there is no ears around for me. 

Today i came across this poem which matches my grief.


I am certain that both of you are together now, I am sure both of you are still tirelessly praising each other, I am sure now your eyes sparkle again when you laugh, I am sure there is no suffering, no pain, no sorrow there, I am sure both of you are there for each other in the other world. 

Miss you, 




Location: Thane, Maharashtra, India

Comments

Unknown said…
That’s really amazing, you enacted your emotions so well.
Somewhere I also feel attached to it.
We don’t give importance to the moment until it becomes a memory.
September 29, 2020 at 7:53 AM
Vidya said…
Beautifully poured emotions with much chosen words... God bless you beta :)
October 2, 2020 at 9:54 AM
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